i was talkin to my lovely captain jiahui just now..
i told her what happened today..between my mum n my dad..
we just talked.and i cried..
the void in my heart..will never be replaced larh..
i talk talk talk..sae oh im not bothered..but fuck larh. i stil care so much..so damn bloody much.

things are so diff now..so very different........
it's exhausting even thinkin about it...much less be caught in the middle again and again.

sigh.i need you...